Sunday, December 21, 2008

Manifest and Create

We are all connected, so deeply-it is rare that we get to see things in our life come full circle.  I remember when Mason died I had to stop asking 'Why?' because truly no answer was ever going to be good enough-
Now here I sit almost 7 years to the day and suddenly the threads are seemingly re-uniting in a way I never expected.
Let me start by reading a brief journal excerpt from January of this year

"Thank you for my life.  Thank yo for so many abundant blessings and opportunities.  Thank you for opening my life in a state of gratitude-may I exist here always.  Thank you for my children and my husband.  The recognition of these amazing people in itself makes me smile with joy.  
I want to affect the world, more compassion for a greater good-I see myself helping women feel beautiful and see the dream.  I want true Entreprenuerial Success, I want to help women, change lives and use business to catapolt strength, change and empowerment in women.   I want to work in an environment that supports my vision.

I feel incredibly part and a part to the world and the universe, I can feel myself slowly pulling away from my ego, I want a new mantra that I will repeat daily..."I intend to feel good"  I will stay with Spirit, I answer YES, I will
-help empower women
-moms who have lost children
-motivational speaker
-amazing wife and mother
-have prosperity
I say YES, spirit lead me, I am open to your gifts, I will give and receive.  I trust all you have and know you will lead me.  I AM ready"

I wrote that almost a year ago.  Since that time I have come in contact with a business that meet that vision, but beyond that I have come in contact with people who are showing up in my life in ways I would have never imagined.  

I have followed an organization called CARE for almost 6 years, the entire campaign of helping empower Woman is one that resonates with me on a level I can not explain.  I am feeling an opening, a space, an opportunity, a calling and I know I will have a chance to affect this world in more ways than I have ever dreamed.

I always knew I had so much to give, I always knew I could impact this world in a deep and profound way.

I want to thank my Spirit for guiding me and ask that I continue to follow and be open to all the opportunities that may help me serve in the way I was born to...

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Christmas Play

The boys had their Christmas play this weekend!  It was adorable, bien sur Nico ne veut pas aller...mais
Nico was not interested being on stage but-Dom loved it.  Papa missed it because he was in Mexico doing some Zrii meetings-the boys didn't seem to mind because he brought back $5 pesos that the boys have been carrying around in their pockets ever since;)  Funny the things that kids love!  WE try so hard to give them everything and truthfully they just want our time, our love, our acceptance and our presence-not PRESENTS!

We are looking forward to a wonderful holiday and are so excited about the many possibilities the future holds.
A bientot

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

Santa Monica

We had a beautiful weekend with the family!  We went to Santa Monica with the boys Friday night, and to be honest I almost canceled the the last minute we were running late-well I was.  The kids were at school and I was left to pack for everyone and I admit I was bitter.  So Dave and I were on the way and I was just in that Bitchy place, there wasn't much he could do or say that I didn't jump down his throat about.  The kids could obviously feel the tension so they had temper tantrums and break downs the majority of the 6 hr drive-we finally arrived in Santa Monica shortly before midnight!

And that is when everything changed!  Immediately walking into my girlfriends house I felt a sense of relief-and no it is not because she lives in an amazing house in the Pacific Palasades;0  it is truly her presence.  She is amazing!  You know those people, the ones that put you at PEACE instead of draining you?  My two boys and Dave could sense it as well.  
The next morning we woke up to pancakes after taking showers with the boys in the upstairs suite.  Then my girlfriend and I hiked the canyon in Santa Monica-the view up there is STUNNING an it was just what my body needed to relieve the stress and anger I had been hoarding!