Manifest and Create

We are all connected, so deeply-it is rare that we get to see things in our life come full circle.  I remember when Mason died I had to stop asking 'Why?' because truly no answer was ever going to be good enough-

Now here I sit almost 7 years to the day and suddenly the threads are seemingly re-uniting in a way I never expected.

Let me start by reading a brief journal excerpt from January of this year

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"Thank you for my life.  Thank yo for so many abundant blessings and opportunities.  Thank you for opening my life in a state of gratitude-may I exist here always.  Thank you for my children and my husband.  The recognition of these amazing people in itself makes me smile with joy.  

I want to affect the world, more compassion for a greater good-I see myself helping women feel beautiful and see the dream.  I want true Entreprenuerial Success, I want to help women, change lives and use business to catapolt strength, change and empowerment in women.   I want to work in an environment that supports my vision.

I feel incredibly part and a part to the world and the universe, I can feel myself slowly pulling away from my ego, I want a new mantra that I will repeat daily..."I intend to feel good"  I will stay with Spirit, I answer YES, I will

-help empower women

-France

-Africa

-Children

-moms who have lost children

-Mentor

-motivational speaker

-amazing wife and mother

-have prosperity

-travel

 

I say YES, spirit lead me, I am open to your gifts, I will give and receive.  I trust all you have and know you will lead me.  I AM ready"

I wrote that almost a year ago.  Since that time I have come in contact with a business that meet that vision, but beyond that I have come in contact with people who are showing up in my life in ways I would have never imagined.  

I have followed an organization called CARE for almost 6 years, the entire campaign of helping empower Woman is one that resonates with me on a level I can not explain.  I am feeling an opening, a space, an opportunity, a calling and I know I will have a chance to affect this world in more ways than I have ever dreamed.

I always knew I had so much to give, I always knew I could impact this world in a deep and profound way.

I want to thank my Spirit for guiding me and ask that I continue to follow and be open to all the opportunities that may help me serve in the way I was born to...

Christmas Play

The boys had their Christmas play this weekend!  It was adorable, bien sur Nico ne veut pas aller...mais

Nico was not interested being on stage but-Dom loved it.  Papa missed it because he was in Mexico doing some Zrii meetings-the boys didn't seem to mind because he brought back $5 pesos that the boys have been carrying around in their pockets ever since;)  Funny the things that kids love!  WE try so hard to give them everything and truthfully they just want our time, our love, our acceptance and our presence-not PRESENTS!

We are looking forward to a wonderful holiday and are so excited about the many possibilities the future holds.

A bientot

Santa Monica

Wow!

We had a beautiful weekend with the family!  We went to Santa Monica with the boys Friday night, and to be honest I almost canceled the trip..at the last minute we were running late-well I was.  The kids were at school and I was left to pack for everyone and I admit I was bitter.  So Dave and I were on the way and I was just in that Bitchy place, there wasn't much he could do or say that I didn't jump down his throat about.  The kids could obviously feel the tension so they had temper tantrums and break downs the majority of the 6 hr drive-we finally arrived in Santa Monica shortly before midnight!

And that is when everything changed!  Immediately walking into my girlfriends house I felt a sense of relief-and no it is not because she lives in an amazing house in the Pacific Palasades;0  it is truly her presence.  She is amazing!  You know those people, the ones that put you at PEACE instead of draining you?  My two boys and Dave could sense it as well.  

The next morning we woke up to pancakes after taking showers with the boys in the upstairs suite.  Then my girlfriend and I hiked the canyon in Santa Monica-the view up there is STUNNING an it was just what my body needed to relieve the stress and anger I had been hoarding!

Happy Turkey Day

A day of Peace, Love and Pure Happiness;)  

The boys, Dave and I were outside playing ball today-that's what it's all about!

Dream It!

I have a couple of friends in my life that are inspiring, I mean the kind of people who know what there dreams are, they have identified them and then they actually are TAKING ACTION to make them a reality.  What a concept right?  I mean how many people dream and dream, and complain and dream, and hold someone else responsible for making their dream come true?  I mean come on people, the victim line is so last decade.  Take control, take ownership and believe in yourself enough to KNOW you are worth every dream you've ever had.  If it wasn't unique to your being it would not inspire you, go for it!  If you need any inspiration check this out Dreams The Movie

The above picture is of me and Dom sleeping on the beach in Santa Monica, truly my dreams don't get much simpler than that;)

STOP Are you unique? Really?

What makes me different?  Am I really unique?  Sometimes it's hard to sift through the noise and plug into what makes us well...us.  Right now my little 2 year old is screaming with his pants down and his shoes around his ankles 'I have to go poo poo mama'  may be I am not that different after all;)

Off to wipe buts, blog some more tomorrow

We are MAKING it HAPPEN, the best way to predict the future is to CREATE IT!

Rubbing Shoulders

They say to combine 5 of your closest friends and that should average your income and your spirit.  We are moving on up;)  Here are some great photos!  Bill Farley was a true inspiration, looking in his eyes you can see where his heart it.  Zrii is real, this man is real and this opportunity is real.  Robert Kiyosaki  says to give a Network Marketing company atleast 5 years to show it's true residual potential.  We are well on our way and excited to be a part of this fabulous journey. 

Belief is EVERYTHING

I attended an amazing event for Zrii this past weekend called Rising Star Academy, never before have I been in a room with so many people vibrating at such a high level!  The energy was palpable.  I remember as a little girl knowing that I would be something special, someone big, someone to be admired and heard.  I never thought that would lead me to a Network Marketing Company-but it has!  And I couldn't be prouder.  The caliber of people we are surrounding ourselves with is La creme de la Creme, not only wealth but true belief, love and respect for who they are and the impact they want to have on this world.  So much of what I heard had to do with service!  I was proud to be in the company of these people and it has taken my belief in Zrii and in Mankind to a new level.  I feel at home when I am with these people, there is something that resonates deeper than any paycheck, it is a Lifestyle of deep belief and I am excited to see what the future holds for me and my family on this wonderful journey.

Self Confidence, it comes in many forms

Learning more and more about ourselves every day is really what this experience of life is all about.  It is funny how on some days I can imagine all of my possibilities and truly feel the swelling of the universe inside... than on others, well not so much.

i am leaning to value my job as a mother and really see it as a pure and beautiful gift rather than something I am supposed to do.  Really who else could raise these beautiful boys better than me?  No one and I know that for a fact!  I need to remember that it is a privilege to be a mother and take pride in this magnificent role.

In my quest for higher learning and expansion of self I came across, The Magic of Thinking Big, an audio series I bought my hubbie for Christmas last year.  I was just listening to it in the car, and one thing keeps ringing in my mind.  "What do you really want?"..........................................

"What is stopping you?"

Halloween Buzz

I am still trying to rid our house of endless streams of Butterfingers, Snickers, and M&Ms..the endless bribe and threats of 'if you don't we will throw away your Halloween candy...' are starting to wain.  Boundless bursts of energy followed by tamper tantrums are getting the best of me.  Plus the last thing I need haunting me in the middle of the night is a Kit Kat bar that I  know I stashed in the back of the cabinet...mmmm they used to be my favorite;)

Boo Hoo Boo Oooo Boo Baby Boo

My commitment to this blog was serendipitously put on hold as I had issues with our Internet connection;)  Also our laptop decided to break down... however sweet it was.  I have been wanting to switch to Mac for a long time and have been saying I wanted a MacBook, I was at the Mac store at The Biltmore previewing my new purchase and after calling the hubbie he suggested we wait and do it together.  Well to days later i talked to a friend who said he had a brand new MacBook he wasn't using and out of the kindness in his should he would give it to us;0!!!!!  Talk about manifesting baby!  So here I am typing from our new MacBoook, thank you Klatch.

The kids had so much fun on Halloween!

Life's Purpose in this economy?

ok I know that the majority of America is panicked and many people are so caught up in an emotional wind tunnel that they are forgetting who they are and why we are all here! I know for a fact that the given state of the economy is a gift, it is a chance for us all to look deep and connect with our authentic selves-no more shopping sprees to numb us out-this is real and this is now! We must take advantage of these lean times and really ask ourselves what this life is all about and how were we as individuals meant to contribute. Here is a short exercise below...

Life Purpose Exercise

1. List two of your unique personal qualities i.e. passion and emotion

2. List one or two ways you enjoy expressing those qualities when interacting with others i.e. "I like to inspire and ignite other people's passions by teaching, coaching and mentoring."

3. Assume the world is perfect right now. What does it look and feel like? How is everyone interacting with one another? Remember a perfect world is a fun place to be.;) ie. "Everyone is financially free and has time and money to pursue their passions. Everyone is spiritually healthy and manifesting good to all they encounter."

4. Combine numbers 2&3 i.e. "My purpose is to use my passion and emotion to support others and ignite their passions, helping them to become spiritually healthy and financially free."

5. How will you contribute your gifts to others? How does it show up? What does it look like? i.e. "How I contribute my gift is by mentoring and coaching others to discover their deepest truest self and giving them the confidence to pursue their best life. I use Zrii as a vehicle to financial freedom and share with others the gift of health, financial bliss and confidence to live life the way it was meant to be lived-helping one another and enjoying ourselves along the way."

*Exercise by Jack Canfield-adapted by Tara Marino

Happy Hour with the Ladies

So I am headed off to Happy Hour with my Ladies Who Launch group http://www.chow.com/places/446p at Delux on Camelback, I love this place and the fries are AMAZING;0
The boys are preciosuly watching Little Bear on tv and I am attempting to look cute and sexy but not overly done...will do a post about that soon!
It is so important for ous mom to get out there, discuss topics that are important and inspiring to us and be around like minded women.
So off I go
xoxox
Tara

Untouched

I am sitting in my Arizona backyard looking at bright pink bougainvillea and listening softly to the breeze and the distant cars. It has finally cooled off and this is the time of year when I remember why we live here.
So simple yet so often out of reach...today seems more peaceful than usual maybe it was the Yogi meditative tea I drank this morning ( I did have two cups;) http://www.yogitea.com/Pages/OurTeas/MindTeas/MeditativeTime.html or perhaps it is solely my state of mind. I am choosing inner peace-very inexpensive I may add-but completely rich in rewards.
I challenge you all today to take a deep breath, look around, feel the universe in your soul and smile.
Love and Promise,
Tara

What is your life's purpose?

Wow, so I have continued to learn a lot about myself this month. I have discovered my purpose in life and feel so absolutely exhilerated! My passion is to use my passion and emotion to help others to ignite their passions while aiding them in finding spititual health and financial wealth! Life is incredible truly;) I sot here sometimes and see my life's potential, my true worth as a woman, a mom, a wife and the world seems so open...then I become paralyzed. Well this month I am vowing to fit through that! I want to explore all possibilities and options, I want to live, explore and have fun. So this is the plan

1. Start blogging 3 times a week
2. Start mentoring and coaching 2 times a week
3. Plan trip to Mexico to help open company
4. Research Mexico and places to live safely with kids (any insight here would be great;)

Good day fellow dreamers

Wow, great day spending time with the family and working from home. I dream of being able to help coach people to fulfill their passions and travel the world...yippee

Laundry dear?

Still trying to balance it all! I need fki*^n help with the laundry! What is it? How are we expected to do it all? Work, cook, clean? Seriosuly do I have it all wrong? I adore my husband but if I hear 'just leave it I'll get it' one more time I am going to throw our wooden kitchen table thorugh the bay window. Would someone please send me some help? I need my laundry and floors cleaned for $50/week come on it can be done. Manifest it baby!

It is Working

Wow, I can't believe this we are manifesting our dreams. It is happening!!! My husband and I took the kids to school together today and then worked together. We had our first house meeting for Zrii and it went wonderful. I am actually starting to see the Matrix, we can have all we want. Manifest, Believe, Achieve!

Zriidom

Wow, so much time has passed! My hubbie and I have been partaking on a brand new adventure together Zrii. I would love to hear what you all have to say about it. We have been wanting to work together for years and we are getting ready to make it happen.

Kids are good, wow I go to bed every night praying that they know how much I love them-they are so dear to me! ok anyway I am going to be better with my posts now.

Promise to follow through

So I promised myself when I started this blog that I would follow through-so please forgive my short absence. I have found myself completely overwhelmed this week as the kids do not have school and I took my littlest one out of daycare because I got an accident report 2 weeks in a row that he was bit on the face-did I mention he only went for two weeks? Oh that was the guilt thorn straight in the heart.
So now here we are trying to figure out how to keep a 2 yr old and 5 yr old occupied without tearing apart the house and keeping me in some sort of control before I bite them!
I don't know it is so dam hard to have them home all day! I can't get a 'fuckin' thing done and I feel out of control! I have not taken a shower, so the sexy part of me feels completely diminished. I have been doing laundry and cleaning non stop since 6:30 am-my hubbie is stressed to hit quota and the financial pressures seem to be leaking-now in all honesty this is probably a lot self reflected because I spent money when I was recovering from surgery that I KNOW I should not have-for some reason it just didn't seem that bad at the time. Now I feel like crap and have bags of stuff sitting in the car ready to return tomorrow with two kids in tow.
here are some updated pics of what we have been doing to keep ourselves occupied. Building forts, driving tractors, making funny faces and baking cakes!

Did I mention we live in AZ and it is 114 out-maybe has something to do with my lovely mood!

Ladies Who Launch, Women and Business

There is an amazing group out there that helps women launch business and I am not talking about a typical networking group! This is a sisterhood, a trus place of peace for women. Do yourself a favor and check out www.LadiesWhoLaunch.com

New Design by Shauna Designs

What do you think of my new design? I was fortunate enough to come across Shauna Designs, I highly highly recommend her. She is fast, reliable and her prices are amazing! You can contact her here at http://seemydesigns.blogspot.com/

Thank you Shauna! I love your work

Whats a girl to do? Rely on Friends Friends Friends

So I am a little bit better on the recovery end and my emotions are beginning to stabilize-thank God. I have been trying to juggle recovery, the kids and my lingerie business. I needed some creative energy today-so I called an amazing friend who I respect and admire. We ended up spending 3 hrs together at AJs brain storming and just being there for each other-it was just what I needed. I left with an action plan for my business and a smile on my face. Friends are supposed to do that for you, they are supposed to encourage you and build confidence. I feel so blessed and keep an eye out for my lingerie line;)!

Super Mom

Boobies much better today:) I am attempting to make my boys lives interesting without overburdening them with activities. I read a recent article that talked about kidies having stress like symptoms from being carted to Dance lessons, then Piano lesson, Swim Lessons, and homework! http://kidshealth.org/parent/emotions/feelings/stress.html. I want my kids to be kids, I also want them to be perfect:) ha. So I signed my 5 year old up for Tae Kwon Do, he seemed to LOVE it! I was such a proud mama as I watched him yell "Yes Sir" and punch the air. When we came home I had an art activity all set for them to go-we painted wooden trains, and I had to restrain myself from grabbing the paint brush from my 2 year old as he slopped green paint all over the silver wheels. Tomorrow I will post a picture of the not so perfectly painted trains-but they really loved it, my 5 year old had a break down just before bed because he already can't find his slightly yellow, pinkish red choo choo train-but hell they made them and they enjoyed it. Now excuse me while I go scrub paint off the dining room table! AHGG

spiders please

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Where does it go?

Still recovering from my BOOB JOB, they seem to be getting a little smaller but not much!
So my little ones are still in school and I spent every second that they were gone completely consumed in....crap. running from this appointment to that one, emptying the dishwasher, doing the laundry, sweeping the floors, prepping dinner-I swear I need a full time maid-by the time I was done it was time to go get the kids. I feel completely drained and not as though I accomplished anything monumental-it is so overwhelming sometimes, trying to figure out where to spend my time, where am I most valuable? Then I tucked my two kids into bed-after of course bribing them with a Popsicle and then watched their gorgeous little faces as they softened and entered that world of peace. I suppose my time is best spent watching them and really being impacted by who they are and what is important to them...So much for lists, more homeopathy appointments tomorrow and hopefully some much needed rest so I can recover!

*the above picture captures it perfectly and is from ModernMom.com, a really cool site for moms who are doing everything for everybody. Check it out http://modernmom.com/

Burnt toast syndrome

SO how many other moms out there find themselves doing this? Come on please tell me it is not just me! You know, you are making everyone breakfast and a piece of toast gets burnt-no one wants it, but you jump to the rescue 'don't worry I'll take it!' And it's not just about toast? How many times have you just taken the left overs, or made everyone else dinner except yourself? I am making a new promise to myself, I am going to TRY and take care of me first! What is it with us? I know intellectually that the way I treat myself is ultimately the way they are going to treat me and more importantly the way they are going to eventually treat themselves! But I get caught in the martyr syndrome, and dam it I am done! Seriously, I want my toast lightly toasted and I want a fresh salad-not the leaves at the bottom after everyone else has picked through. So come one moms-join me, let's start taking care of ourselves!

The things we do and don't do....

Ok so the crazy life of a mama...I had my Hubby bring our 2 yr old to daycare this morning because I know I couldn't stand it to leave him there crying...and I went to drop our 5 yr old-(my recovery is getting better and my boobies have actually shrunk a little bit;) on my way home I thought I would call and check on him-and he was still crying. Around 9:30 I decided I would go check on him, it is really close to my house and they have a window so the kiddies can't see you looking-well I watched him for about 5 minutes and he was in the corner and every once in a while he would call 'Mama' aggghh, my heart was breaking..so I stormed in and grabbed him. I told the teacher we would try again on Monday. We barely got out into the driveway when he started smiling and saying 'Mama school fun...'oh the little S*%^! We get home and we are there for about 20 minutes before he is in the sink, crawling on the dresser, and dumping boxes of cereal onto the floor...I thought to myself what am I doing I am not even supposed to be carrying him and it is only 10am I can't do this all day. So I said 'you want to go to school?' and he said 'yeah mama back to school' I threw him in the stroller before he could change his mind and signed him back in at 10:05. You would think I would be better at this since I have been through it before...but oh the emotional roller coaster you go through as a mom.!

I get so emotional baby

So if I wasn't emotional enough yesterday I watched P.S. I love you today while I am still trying to recover in bed! Oh my Lord, so emotional my husband calls me Whitney when ever I get like this and always says 'it's ok baby, I get so emotional baby, every time I think of you' funny maybe but not when you are crying your eyes out! Seriously I haven't cried this much in a long time, maybe it's the meds from the plastic surgery-man that Vicodan will knock you out.
So I have spent the morning sending my husband a sappy, sappy email telling him how much I adore him and that I am blessed to have him in my life. Then spent the next hour trying to fall asleep, I am exhausted and I CAN'T sleep, why does that happen-especially now that I have a quiet house!
I am hoping to be back in the swing of things by next week-but in the mean time I hired Maid Pro to come and clean today-wow I am really milking this plastic surgery thing huh? But I figure I am entitled, I have much more important things to do with my International Business degree, like shop on the Internet and write blogs;)

Oh the depth of it

Ok so I am in an emotional ball right now. Today was my first follow up from the surgery-the first time I drove-I had my stitches taken out and...my boobs are still big! OMG they are not as small as I had wanted and I feel like complete SHIT, I left the doctors office in tears and sat int he parking lot continuing to beat myself up for 20 minutes with thoughts like these running through my head "Why did you do this in the first place, are you that vain?" "All the money this cost and you are not even happy?" "Now your kids are in daycare because you are so selfish" "Now your husband is working overtime and paying for daycare that is your job" "What good are you if you can't do your job?" Ok still quite emotional about this so hold on while I dry off the keyboard...
So I got home and called by best friend of 18 years and was consoled by her ever so present embracing nature as she assured me that I am not a bad mom, that I have a good hear, and that all these things are temporary and that I need to rest so I can properly take care of my family. Then she reminded me that 4 weeks ago I was bitching because I couldn't get a moment to myself-so she told me to shut up lay on the couch and take a nap-:) What are best friends for?

I came across a site dedicated to girlfriends this is what they have to say

What are the qualities of a great girlfriend?
Someone who sees what's right about me!
Someone who will keep my secrets & trust me with hers
Someone I can be my true self around
Someone I can laugh with
Someone I can see every day or sometimes not for a year and we still connect like sisters
Someone who will stand by me in good times and in bad
Someone who will stand up for me if need be
Someone who will lovingly give me hygiene tips if needed
Someone who will remind me of all the great things about me when I am feeling a mess
Someone who values me as an individual
Someone who will always be there for me no matter what kind of mood I'm in
Someone who I can trust
Someone who always has my best interest at heart

http://www.theglobalvoice.com/global_girlfriends.htm

Dirty Little Secrets

So I have a confession, I bought a bunch of stuff off the Nordies website and hid it under the bed! I am wrestling with the idea of returning it all-I have this compulsion especially when I am couped up and of course I needed all new clothes just because I got my boobs redone. Which by the way are still too big! I really wanted to go down to a B and it looks like a full C-my patient Italian husband looked overjoyed as I almost cried when he returned home from work today. "What the F*%K? We just spent another 5k on those puppies!" Actually he didn't say any of that I could see it in his eyes as he quickly picked up the whining toddler and brought him to bed.

oh la la

ok, so as I sit in my bed trying desperately not to think about the house in it's newly wrecked state-thank you honey you are doing a great job with the kids;) Since I can not get up and physically DO the laundry I have found myself searching the web on one of my favorite sites, A Touch of Europe, and came across this amazing laundry bag. So I will follow the docs orders and pretend all of my laundry is stuffed in this beautiful French European laundry bag-and that my very own French maid is going to show up and take care of it before I recover!

Itty Bitty Titties

I am home in bed today-yes one of the only moments a mom has to close her eyes in when she is in bed and the only excuse we have to rest is when we are sick. Not sure if we bring it on or it's just society-either way! This time I am not sick-nope I had ...PLASTIC SURGERY!!! That's right I am a suburban mom in Scottsdale Arizona who had plastic surgery;) What did I have done? Well three years ago I insisted-and I mean insisted-, if you know me you know I typically get what I want, on getting my boobs done. My husband politely-in his ever so humble Italian way-told me to wait until we were done having kids so...I got my boobs done. I went from a small A to a full D! Trying to perfect the image of skinny and big boobs I never imagined what it would be like to carry those suckers around! I have been wearing a sports bra for 3 years 24/7 and any ideas I had of sexy clothing were out of the question because as my husband calls it THE SHERA BRA was always necessary-nothing cute about thick nude straps sticking out of that slinky black tank. So after much cajoling and many I told you sos from my husband oh and after nursing another child...I went back in. Now I am a C, perfect I feel better, of course all my husbands friends are calling to apologize that he has lost his fun bags!

Which brings me back to the reason I am in bed-supposing to be resting-what is is with us type A's anyway? Dominic went to school this morning like a champ, but because I really cant do much we had to resort to taking Nico to daycare across the street, they just called and he has been crying for over 40 minutes. Ahh, now I feel like a great mom-no guilt here-just can't take care of my kid because I insisted on getting a boob job. Lovely